October: Her Words

 

BIRTHDAY WISH

 

Normal People

...maybe the writing is for some another day...as the experience is numbing. some images just to remind myself the beautiful heart wrenching end...

This is when Marianne convinces Connell to go to New York to complete his MFA Creative Writing course because writing is intimate and personal for him just like Marianne is to him. 

Based on the 2018 novel of the same name by Sally Rooney is  intimately relatable, cathartic, and personal (for lack of better words) . I will put my thoughts someday when I am bit detached of what I felt while experiencing this beautiful ''NORMAL PEOPLE''

LET THERE BE PEACE.

- Morpheus

Drawing Parallels.

When you find Parallels unexpectedly.

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In one of his first letters to Haskell from Paris, Gibran captures what is perhaps the greatest gift of love, whatever its nature — the gift of being seen by the other for who one really is:

When I am unhappy, dear Mary, I read your letters. When the mist overwhelms the “I” in me, I take two or three letters out of the little box and reread them. They remind me of my true self. They make me overlook all that is not high and beautiful in life. Each and every one of us, dear Mary, must have a resting place somewhere. The resting place of my soul is a beautiful grove where my knowledge of you lives.

 

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In another letter, he captures one of the small enormities that define love:

I love to be silent with you, Mary.

A few days later, responding to Gibran’s concern that his physical illness and its attendant creative block might disappoint her, Haskell sends the most beautiful and generous assurance a person who is loved could hope for:

I don’t even want you to be a poet or painter: I want you to be whatever you are led or impelled to become.

[…]

Nothing you become will disappoint me; I have no preconception that I’d like to see you be or do. I have no desire to foresee you, only to discover you. You can’t disappoint me. 

 

Signing Off.

Let there be Peace.

- Morpheus

Time Space Relativity.

Time is Relative.

The Wait can be ... Eternal.

So is the awareness of Reality.

 Let there be peace.

-Morpheus

Self Musings by Morpheus

Vuja De: Something Familiar Visited With Newer Perspective

What is about a movie which stays with you? Most probably the emotions it makes you go through. Or it can be the characters' journey which you find personal or relatable. Or just the story which makes you think. Being an ardent cinema admirer (almost on the verge of calling myself a cinephile) I very well understand, the impact it has on me. 

Most of the time to watch my choicest list I have to align my mood to the movie I am about to watch. Of course, some have magical experience but few can be disappointing as well. And that is why I am quite selective recently. Because Cinema is just not a 2-3 hours time pass or mere entertainment for me. Cinema is about experiencing '' MY EMOTIONAL SELF'' which otherwise I hide somewhere in the realm of an uncharted territory. I do understand with utmost honesty why people find me insensitive, emotionless, moody and so on. But the Alexithymiac like me should not mind because I can't pretend what I am not and I am quite a failure in maintaining relationships.

Recently I revisited Jab Harry Met Sejal. By the way, has it ever occurred why do we feel for the same thing differently at different stages of our life? I never liked the film when I watched it for the first time. Almost discarded it as another dud. I am a huge SRK fan. I like him even in the worst roles. But maybe I expected something magical from an Imtiaz Ali movie where Shahrukh Khan is playing the lead role. It was almost like a kid about to relish his favorite chocolate...but BOOM...Tragedy strikes. I could not even enjoy the basic taste, forget about the relishing part. I felt ditched. Well yes, I may not feel stumbled by human beings but a form of an Expressive Art can certainly overstep my (non existing) emotions. How come? Well, I usually try not to question my immediate feelings. Thoroughly disappointed I had let it go. But surprisingly she loved it. I was quite surprised because she was not an SRK fan. She said if I remember correctly, there was something about Harry that appealed to her. That line stayed with me. Yes,  I did wonder...what did I miss? 

So quite recently, I have made a List of Films I want to Revisit or Re-watch. And I had #JabHarryMetSejal in that list as well. Maybe I wanted to still know after many years, what did I miss. And thanks to my selective memory syndrome I forgot everything I watched. So it was almost like a new film as if watching for the first time. I often can revisit the movies with completely new eyes, almost like the feeling of Vuja De. Something familiar yet not. Seeing it differently with a new perspective and most importantly different state of mind. This time JHMS felt so personal. Maybe because I am in a different phase of life OR it could be just the Relatability Quotient of Harry's emptiness...his constant seeking of something unknown...his restlessness...his sense of Hiraeth...everything was so Palpable. It reminded me of something I wrote long back...for Her.

The nakedness of my soul is invigorating

For me to engulf into...

But yes, You are the one,

I trusted with all my inhibitions and vulnerability.

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Yes, I do believe ...What You Seek is...Seeking You.  

Reintroducing myself to Harry was like entering my own mind space...and be there without questioning much and reliving some moments unconditionally. Thank you Imtiaz Ali for making such cinema which gives newer perspectives even in the ordinariness. 

Let there be Peace.

- Morpheus